"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who matter don't mind."

So I will be moving back to AZ here at the end of summer. It will be good to be near family again. Andrew and I will amicably be going our separate ways. I'm condiminium/job hunting. So wish me luck with that endeavor. Maybe I'll get a dog? We'll see how that will pan out with the other fur kids, (Audra & Nico). I already have a drinking date promise with Trish upon my return. :)

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My attempt to kill my L.J. posts failed. I tried to delete my posts by canceling my account because I was too lazy to delete them individually. Decided I should keep them and at least pop my head in to say allo every now and then. So allo!

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TOP TEN REASONS WHY TRICK-OR-TREATING IS BETTER THAN SEX

10. You are guaranteed to get something in the sack.

9. If you get tired, nobody gets an attitude.

8. You can suck on a Tootsie Roll in public and no one cares.

7. You don't have to compliment the person who gives you some.

6. Dressing up and fantasizing isn't considered kinky.

5. If you don't like what you get, you can just go next door.

4. The police don't care if you turn a few tricks.

3. You can ride a broomstick that's several feet long.

2. The uglier you look, the easier it is to get some.

...and the number one reason trick or treating is better than sex...

1. YOU CAN DO THE WHOLE NEIGHBORHOOD.

Can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent.' -- Calvin Coolidge

Recently I had someone solicit me in one of my journal entries and I felt it was inappropriate. I am now making this journal friends only. If you would like to continue to read this and share similar interests with me, leave a comment.

NO PEEKING!

So I got into a car accident today and I think my car is totaled. I was thinking about all the things I needed to do today, I turn my head for a second to look out my window, when I turn to back, the car in front of me is stopped and I'm not. Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! I wasn't going more than 30 MPH and I wasn't tailgating him. He must of stopped just as I turned my head to look out my window. I can't believe it did so much damage. My radiator was pushed 12 inches back from it's original resting position. After the impact, I could not longer see over my hood. The guy in front of me had paint missing on his bumper and scratches, that was about it. I hurt like hell and I know it could of been alot worse but I have enough drama going on I don't need this. I keep hoping this is like the movie groundhog's day and I will wake up and it will be a lousy dream. Damn it.

I get to take Anjin to another vet visit, (which he absolutely hates, fun for me, not really :::::sigh::::) We get to see where his blood count is at and if it's increasing. If it is, yay! he'll be ok, if not then I have to consider other options that I didn't really want to think about. He seems to be more energetic then I've seen him in a long time. I woke up the other day with one of his toy balls in my face and Audra doesn't play with them. Keep sending energy guys!

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Walking in the park with Andrew and we took some really nice pretty photos.
It was nice to get out of the house.
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I spoke with my friend Al this morning. I wished he wasn't at work. I would of asked him to forget I'm his friend and give me a professional breakdown from his perspective on how I'm feeling. I've been in quite the funk. My usual remedies for when I get this way are not being effective but then again, I haven't explored all of my options. I was pleased to find that the set of things I have sent him are helping him sleep better, he even said they worked better than the first set I sent. I may have over stepped my bounds with him with something I said and I hope I didn't. But, I don't think him so polite as to not tell me. I've over stepped my bounds with him in the past and he has told me before when I did. We have that kind of respect for each other, but I need to be more careful of what I say.

I'm ready for the week of bad news to be over.

I get a call from my mom last night.

Mom, "Did Ken,(my brother) call you?"
Me, "No, was he supposed to?"
Mom, "Yes he was, so you don't know."
Me, "Know what?"
Mom, "I'm in the hospital."
Me in a very concerned voice, "Why are you in the hospital?"
Mom, "My physical therapist noticed swelling and a temperature difference in my leg and told me to go to the hospital."
Me, "Mom, why are you in the hospital?"
Mom, "They found blood clots in my leg."
Me, "THEY FOUND WHAT?!?!?!?!?"

I'm lucky that my mom has a very good physical therapist.

Well, I got a call from the vet earlier today, and she is confident she pin pointed the problem with Anjin.

Vet, "Well I got good news, sort of"
Me, "So what is it?"
Vet, "He doesn't have cancer or leukemia."
Me, "If it isn't cancer or leukemia then what is it?"
Vet, "This is very rare, but he has an autoimmune disorder that is destroying his red blood cells."

So basically Anjin's immune system is attacking itself. I didn't even know cats could get autoimmune disorders. She says it's treatable but it depends on the individual as to how well they respond and it takes awhile for treatments to work (2 months for response time) all the while he may need transfusions in the meantime, and he would most likely respond well to treatment, but, there is a chance that his body may reject the transfusions in the process. This is complicated. I think I need help with this. Please, Pagan friends send energy to him, Christian friends, please pray for him. I would appreciate it.

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More like Andrew Eldritch and a synth machine. I went to the show last night and left early because.....

#1 I have a sick kitty at home.
#2 I had to work early this morning.
#3 I wasn't impressed with quality of the show/or the sound engineers handywork, the bass too high, and I could barely hear the back up vocals or the guitar.
#4 I wanted to perserve the image I had of them before it was too late.

I have seen the Sisters Of Mercy in 98 when they played at the Palladium in LA, that was a good show. So I'm a bit disappointed. I was more impressed with Rob Dickinson who used to be the front man of Catherine Wheel. If I would of known he was openning. I would of been there when the door openned and got more of my moneys worth. I least I got to hear ~Black Metallic~ live and that was awesome.

I noticed that for the past couple of days Anjin has been acting depressed. I was thinking that it was because he missed Andrew. He had been acting weird. Staying in the bedroom getting under the covers even when he wasn't snuggling with me and not leaving the bed except to use the cat box or get water. When he's not in the bedroom he would stay in the bathroom. I noticed that he dropped some weight and he wasn't eating that much and I noticed today he was acting a little shaky. Andrew took him to the vet and we found out that Anjin is chronically anemic and needs a transfusion. I'm waiting to hear back from Andrew to find out what is going on with him. I'm very worried.

Does anyone on my friend's list in the Seattle area know how to do metal soldering, and if so, could someone crash course teach me?